Francis M. died last Friday and was laid to rest yesterday.  I never was a fan, but I was just intrigued by his death.  It was a huge deal especially because of his talents, music, rapping skills, and most especially, his love for our country which he had shown through his art..music and photography.

I checked out his website on which his battle with leukemia was documented.  Saw his pictures and the details describing his treatments and condition.  There were pictures of him where it was obvious he was in pain.. and there were pictures with blood.  Of course.. leukemia is a blood disease, so there must be blood involved during those treatments.  Anywaaaaay..  What I’m saying is that he went through a lot.. and painful ones at that.  But he was still smiling and brave and faithful until the end.  So admirable.

And yeah, for him to go out there and do his thing..even during his sick times.. doing and living for what he loves..just amazing.  He didn’t care what people had to say or what would come his way.

I head the eulogy of one of his sons for him, and he said, "Yung kayabangan ni Papa, it used to irritate me.  And now I miss it. *cries* "

Just goes to show he couldn’t please everybody..not even his own child.  But he went on doing his craft for his country, even when he was already sick and going through so much pain, and there.  He was and still is so much loved.  So courageous.

And we, people in good condition..why do we complain more than he did?  Or..did he ever complain?  I don’t know.  But his optimism and faith just amuse me.  Why don’t we just..get our butts moving instead of complaining?  Di ba no, MM?

Anyway..I heard that they’re planning to make him a national artist, and that GMA’s giving him some kind of award.  Why..why is it that people realize one person’s value only after he has gone?  And then they give him awards, do stuff for him, name places and whatevers after him, but will he get to see these things?  I don’t know.  But wouldn’t it be nicer if these things were done when he was still alive?

But I’ve to talk about my mom.  I never heard her complain about her sickness considering she’s going through a tougher time than he did because. well.. they’re rich, and we’re not.  He had a wonderful and supportive family while we..umm.. don’t get me started.  All I can say is my father’s stupid, worthless, thoughtless, selfish, and inconsiderate.  And our relatives, they’re unfair.  And a whole lot more factors.  Yet my mom gets to live without complaining about her condition.  All she asks for is a  peaceful and quiet time away from stress.  She doesn’t want to bother anyone because of her sickness.  She doesn’t want to worry anyone as well.  Really, really brave.

But I know.. I know that she will get well soon.  She’s tough and faithful and strong willed..  She’ll recover.