About growth..

Uzzi and I are together, but not really, gets?  I mean.. we’re boyfriend girlfriend, but we’re not really a normal couple because we live far away from each other.  Gah.  If only…

Anyway. so… since this is our case, we do not get to spend most of our time together, especially now that he has work.  There are a lot of things we can’t do together.

Can  I fast forward and skip details?  

So.. what I’m saying here is that whatever it is that he has or wants to do, he must go and do it with or without me.   I want him to enjoy and live his life fully and all that.  The time will come, and we’ll spend the rest of our lives together.  But for now, with or without me, he must live on.

I realized how he used to have a lot of things going for him.  Day and night outs, gimmicks, friends, girls, trips, concerts, phone calls, parties, and a whole lot more.  But now.. now that he has me, he doesn’t usually go on anything like those anymore.  He gives up anything and everything for me eh, especially when it means he won’t get to spend time with me since he has to do something or be somewhere.

Let’s add a little bit of Philo here.  Before he became a guy/boyfriend, he was human.  He has human rights that not even the fact that he’s a guy, a boyfriend, plus the responsibilities that come with it, can overpower.

Anwyaaaaaaay..  all I’m saying is.. if he wants to do something, go somewhere, or be something I can’t, I want him to go for it.  I do not want him to hold back.. because he’s worried about me, he’s thinking of me, or he can’t get to do it with me..  I do not want to hinder him from living and getting his dreams.  I’m supporting him all the way.  I want him to have/get what he wants.  I love him even if that means letting him go. 

Yup.

But.. but..
I’m really, really thankful and grateful that even though Uzzi will definitely have a better life without me, he chooses to stick around.